A little less than two months ago, I realized that I was writing some long posts on FaceBook and I had a few folks say things like 'why don't you do a blog' or 'have you thought about writing a daily devotion'. Well, I had thought about it. In fact, a number of years ago I did a daily devotion that had a email list who got it every day. I'd also done a blog for a while. So I was a bit skeptical about doing either.
I enjoy writing but I wondered, do folks actually enjoy reading it. But I continued to get a nudge in my spirit that say 'I have things I want you to say'. Now I had a lot of excuses. What if no one reads? What if I misspeak or say something that is wrong? Where will the time come from? Who am I to write about anything? I've failed at many things and I'm just trying to learn how to do things better.
Just like with Moses, God had an answer. Now, I'm not comparing myself with Moses as a leader. But then again maybe I am, I was reluctant, I was afraid, I have failed and I have a temper. Yep there are some similarities there. Now Moses did great things and I don't see leading thousands in my future. But God showed me that wasn't the goal.
It doesn't matter if it is thousands or one, we just need to lead when He says lead. If I was a gambler, I'd bet that at the end of his life Moses would have learned a lot of lessons. I know I have learned a lot in mine. Some lessons it took me more than once. Have you been there? You wonder why the same types of things keep happening, then you realize God is saying 'you are going around this mountain until you learn this lesson'.
I realize my audience is small, I'm ok with that. I've been blogging when I write this just over 45 days. I've had almost 1,100 views of my posts. That's not huge, there are folks that have more than that in a day. But I thought it would take me a year to have that many, so I'm thrilled.
I've had folks tell me that what I said helped them, I've had folks say that they needed to hear it. What if I had continued to live in my world of excuses? I would have missed the chance to help someone. I would have missed the chance to give.
I've said this before but it bears repeating. I don't write because I know the answers, I write because I want to learn and I want to follow God's direction. Often as I'm writing, God will show me something, it may be something simple or it may be profound, at least to me. Would I have learned that if I were not writing? I don't know.
There are some topics God keeps bringing me back to 1) prayer, 2) praise and 3) following His direction. Yes, I think I'm still circling the mountain on those. But every time I go around that mountain, He shows me something so I'm good with that. In fact, those are topics I may circle the mountain on all my life because I'm not sure you can ever truly learn all there is to know on those subjects. Sometimes circling a mountain is a good thing.
Today's message is a simple one - God wants us, He wants all of us. He wants us to do what He says even if it doesn't make sense to us. He gives us talents and abilities and He wants them used for His glory. We aren't the ones that determine if it is a large audience or a small one. We shouldn't be concerned about anything other than doing what He tells us. He will use it as He sees fit.
I said I love to write and that is true. I'd love to have books published (I have one), I'd love to write a #1 song. I'd love to be published in major magazines. That may never happen, or it may, it's in His hands. But more important than any of those I love writing what God is telling me on a given day. I love sharing my 'finds' in the scripture or in my life. I love that feeling of knowing that I've followed what He told me to do.
I'm not Moses, I'm not Paul, I'm not anyone but me. My job is to be the best me that I can be. My job is seek His presence and to share what He gives me there.
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