Be Careful What You Ask For!

Have you ever asked God to do something and then you see how He is doing it and you go "NOOOOOOO!!! Wait, that's not how I wanted You to do it."  Because of course, we know so much more than God, right?  Yes, I'm being sarcastic but that is the way we act. 


In the last few months I've been on a road that while I'd travelled close to there, I had not been on that particular road.  I could see the path I had taken before, it was familiar and comfortable.  I thought when I started writing that would be the path I went down.  I didn't know that God was going to have me digging around so much in my own past hurts and pains.


I didn't realize that to be used I was going to have to pull the hurt out for display.  I didn't realize that to help someone I was going to have to share things I'd never told anyone.  It is scary.  But it is also freeing.  I allows you to see where God has brought you from.  It sometimes exposes areas that you thought were resolved and realize, they aren't, you need to allow God to work on them more.  That work may be painful but oh the joy it can bring.


But God knows best.  I look at things I've done, places I've been.  I am not proud of them, yet even those can be used for God's glory in helping others with similar struggles.


Then there is the other part of telling God you are ready and willing for Him to use you.  The devil doesn't like it, he is going to throw so many things at you.  Around our house patience is not in large quantities, that is true for me, my daughter and granddaughter.  You ask God to use you and the devil will push every button he can to make your patience snap.  Trust me, he has.  And unfortunately sometimes it worked, at least for a while.  But the difference now and I know why they are happening and I can Nail It To the Cross.


I asked God to use me, I knew how I wanted to be used. I had a plan.  God has a purpose and His purpose is so much better than any plan I can make.  I'm not qualified in myself for some of the areas He has me working in, yet time and again He gives me the answers, He shows the way.  He doesn't need you to be qualified, He just needs you to be willing!